Wedding Budget Breakdown: Part 1

As of this coming weekend, Matthew Darling and I have been husband and wife for 6 months!
It's been great and it's been hard.
All relationships bring challenges to the table and one of the hardest things we have done as a couple is plan our wedding.
So. Many. Decisions.
That's why I thought it may be helpful to share our experience for any soon-to-be-married couples out there who are feeling overwhelmed by the process.
We made multiple spreadsheets and kept very close track of each step of the process.
Now I am able share it, so I can help YOU have the best day too!

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Throwback Thursday: Dear Single Girl

A couple years ago some friends asked me some questions about dating. It's been a few years now, but I think the general idea was "are there even any guys out there worth dating? what does a healthy relationship even look like?" This was my answer. I hand wrote them each this same letter and prayed that God would keep me from communicating crap advice.

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The Truth About Grace

Are you really hard on yourself? I am. I work hard to do things the "right" way, to get a project "right" the first time, to say the "right" things, to look the "right" way, etc. And because I feel like I'm trying so hard, when I do mess up, I don't handle criticism very well. I've been bent this way my entire life and it has harmed me more than it has done me any good.

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Christmas in July

I get overwhelmed sometimes when people give me things. I can feel my insides seizing up and sometimes the enemy says, "you don't deserve those gifts. you aren't good enough to be loved and doted on like this, now you have to do something to earn those things. Earn their love! Earn it!" It's the same with Matthew Darling. And, unfortunately, it's the same with God.

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The Beginning

My whole heart is out there in this world on paper. I have indeed left quite a paper trail of prayers, thoughts, feelings, and reflections. If centuries from now, my great great great great grandchildren wanted to know who I was, they could piece together the love letters I have written to Matthew Darling, the journals where I wrestled with God, and even the emails my mother and I have exchanged over the years, and they would know me better than some people do even today.

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